WOW it's been almost a year since I've posted. Wonder if anyone still reads this thing. T and I are still going strong living together now with our dog at his grandfather's house. I've been working full time since January at High Tech Burrito. Going through life day by day and trying not to focus on my past. I find myself becoming depressed lately.
I've been seeing nothing but friends and acquaintances getting engaged or having a baby. And recently we've had our friend from out of town visiting us, with their six week old baby girl. And as I watch these young mothers post picture of their babies I only think of why can't I have one? Sure not now since clearly I'm not ready, but to know that even if I wanted to get pregnant I can't. I haven't gone to the doctors for this specific issue because I'm scared. What if there really is no way for me to have a child from my own body? Sure there's adoption, but it's my right as a woman to be able to have my own child, but mother nature is depriving me from having what (almost) every girl dreams of.
I've always loved babies and I think I would be a great mother, but maybe mother nature knows best?
