A week

It's been a week since I've had a cigarette. I've been wanting to quit for a while and I've made numerous attempts before, but failed. It's been a long hard week, but it's all mind over matter. Addiction is all a mind game, and I can beat it. 

On another note, I went down to Southern California last weekend for my cousin's baby's first birthday. It was a blast to say the least. The long 8 hour drive was well worth holding that cute baby boy. 

Been taking more pictures lately, getting into photography and capturing the right moment. It's fun to use my creative side and see that people enjoy it as much as I do. T has been helping a bit with understanding my camera and getting the right angles. Some people are getting the wrong impression with T and I though. We are still only friends, and it will probably stay that way. I don't know it's weird we act like we're together but we're both attached to someone who we can't have. Things between T and I have actually become awkward a bit. I don't know what it is, maybe it's because we've been spending so much time together.

With things being awkward with T and I, my thoughts of J are starting to come back. It was nice to have a moment to somewhat forget what happened. I feel like a part of me is always going to hold onto J. 

I picked "Lips of An Angel" by Hinder for today's post because I would love to hear J's voice again. I just want to hear him say my name and tell me that everything will be okay (even though I'm not sure things ever will be okay again). I sometimes lay in T(new guy) and I find myself thinking of J(ex bf), I often fall asleep there thinking it's J wrapping his arms around me.