Dreamland

Dreams, we all have them even if we can't remember them or don't want to remember them in the morning. Most of the time my dreams I don't remember in the morning, but some of them are so realistic I have a hard time separating them from reality. It's weird how most of the dream I do remember are the one's with J, but this one was different from the usual. 

I was walking with someone, a guy, I think his name was Andrew, and I see J with some girl. I see he has an ankle bracelet and has gained age and weight. As I attempted to introduce Andrew, my boyfriend?, I stubble on his name and clearly Andrew gets pissed and introduces himself. Then J introduces the girl, name was not caught, and that's when I woke up. I guess it's my head playing out scenarios of what will happen when J and I meet again, if we ever do. 

On another note things with T and me are pretty good for the most part. I need to learn to controol my temper and not flip out so much but our communication is getting a bit better. I'm kind of excited for school to start because I'll be taking Interpersonal Speech and one of my friends told me it help her learn better ways to communicate with people. This semester is kind of a fun semester. It should be my last semester until I figure out what to do after my AA, but I'm taking two classes and they are both "fun" classes. This semester is about building a better me.

For today's post I picked "Dare You To Move" by Switchfoot because I feel like people have been waiting and watching for my next move after J. I have changed a bit since everything with J but I feel like there's still a huge change that needs to be made. Maybe my move is finding moving on into a relationship with someone else, finishing with school and getting my career, or moving out of California. I don't know what my huge move will be, but I'm excited to see it and I'm not gunna let anyone hold me back this time.