My jealousy is gunna get me in trouble one day. I keep picking fights with T about all these girls he talks to and I guess I need to grow up a bit. But it just makes me uncomfortable cause we aren't together so I don't know what he's looking for in these girls. I've been a jealous girlfriend ever since I started dating (clearly I have some insecurities I need to work out), but right now with T has been some of the worse jealousy I've felt.
We've been able to work things out every time and I've realized I need to stop giving him crap for something that he has apologized and explained and hasn't repeated. There are a few things I need to work on personally before I can get into a relationship. Although I know I'm close to being ready for a relationship again. I want a relationship but to get into one while I still think about J is just not right.
My thoughts of J are less common and less happy. I think I'm finally realizing how much we can't work out and how much I need to protect myself right now. He broke me there's no denying that; I'm a damaged girl but I'm healing. Slowly but surely I will show everyone just how strong I really am.
Maybe for right now what me and T have is just what we both need. Nothing serious but someone there. I care about him and I hope he see that. It's nice to have someone who is completely honest even if sometimes it hurts. And really even if we aren't titled or what not it's been good to have him around, in a way he's helped me realize that there are guys out there who wouldn't hit a woman, no matter what. He's helped me grow. Weridly enough I've been seeing T longer than I dated J.
I chose "That Sunset" by The Lonely Biscuits, I found these guys a few months ago on YouTube and fell inlove instantly. The guy (Pitter) who does the chorus has an amazing voice. And the vibes I get from their songs is so chill. And Gravy, the guy who does the "rapping" has such a good flow. But this song kinda reminds me to just relax and chill, not stress so much.
We've been able to work things out every time and I've realized I need to stop giving him crap for something that he has apologized and explained and hasn't repeated. There are a few things I need to work on personally before I can get into a relationship. Although I know I'm close to being ready for a relationship again. I want a relationship but to get into one while I still think about J is just not right.
My thoughts of J are less common and less happy. I think I'm finally realizing how much we can't work out and how much I need to protect myself right now. He broke me there's no denying that; I'm a damaged girl but I'm healing. Slowly but surely I will show everyone just how strong I really am.
Maybe for right now what me and T have is just what we both need. Nothing serious but someone there. I care about him and I hope he see that. It's nice to have someone who is completely honest even if sometimes it hurts. And really even if we aren't titled or what not it's been good to have him around, in a way he's helped me realize that there are guys out there who wouldn't hit a woman, no matter what. He's helped me grow. Weridly enough I've been seeing T longer than I dated J.
I chose "That Sunset" by The Lonely Biscuits, I found these guys a few months ago on YouTube and fell inlove instantly. The guy (Pitter) who does the chorus has an amazing voice. And the vibes I get from their songs is so chill. And Gravy, the guy who does the "rapping" has such a good flow. But this song kinda reminds me to just relax and chill, not stress so much.
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