It's no secret I'm a jealous person when it comes to my significant other, but I think I need to start working on not being so jealous. I stress myself out too much because of how jealous I can get over some of the smallest things. On top of that it's hard for me to get over things; I try not to hold grudges but it sometimes I just can't let go of somethings. My jealousy has been going crazy with T.
T recently got an account to a website (which I have an account to as well, and he used to make fun of me for having) and well it's got me kinda bothered. I guess I can't be too mad since I have one too. But he seems to feel the need to sneak around on it... he seems to only go on when I'm asleep or gone. We've had an arguement about something that happened with one of the girls from the site and ever since then I've questioned his motives on the site. My fear of being replaced really kicks in here.
I've been thinking about deleting my account because I feel like my jealouy goes crazy when I look at his profile and all these chicks. But if I delete it will he delete his? I doubt it and I don't even think I want to think about asking him about that.
Still haven't been to therapy in a while, but I've been managing a bit better. I still think I need to go back though, but my therapist is on vacation. She's been in contact though, bless her heart.
I chose "Foolish" by Ashanti because well lately i've noticed even after all the stress and jealousy I go through because of T, I still hang out with him everyday. He's become my best friend but I still feel like I can't talk to him about somethings.
T recently got an account to a website (which I have an account to as well, and he used to make fun of me for having) and well it's got me kinda bothered. I guess I can't be too mad since I have one too. But he seems to feel the need to sneak around on it... he seems to only go on when I'm asleep or gone. We've had an arguement about something that happened with one of the girls from the site and ever since then I've questioned his motives on the site. My fear of being replaced really kicks in here.
I've been thinking about deleting my account because I feel like my jealouy goes crazy when I look at his profile and all these chicks. But if I delete it will he delete his? I doubt it and I don't even think I want to think about asking him about that.
Still haven't been to therapy in a while, but I've been managing a bit better. I still think I need to go back though, but my therapist is on vacation. She's been in contact though, bless her heart.
I chose "Foolish" by Ashanti because well lately i've noticed even after all the stress and jealousy I go through because of T, I still hang out with him everyday. He's become my best friend but I still feel like I can't talk to him about somethings.
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