Probably a question you should be able to answer with no problem when it comes to your significant other. But If T can be considered as my significant other, I don't know what I'm doing here. I'm so confused with him. He says I take things too personal, but what if he's the one being inconsiderate? I guess I can't really get mad at him cause of the stressed fact that he doesn't want anything serious.
I think it might be time to walk away, but how? How do I walk away when I know its gunna hurt. At this point I kinda want to just tell him look I'm falling for you and if you aren't gunna catch me tell me now so I can brace myself for the crash.
I've been depressed for the past few days. Doesn't help that he's a bit depressed too. Maybe that's why I've become depressed, we all know how misery loves company. I just hate being that company until he's back on his feet then finds some other girl that he finds more attractive or whatever. It happened many times to me and you know I'm just sick of it.
School starts in less than a week and I can't wait for the distraction. Also finally got some much needed answers about my Diversion Program. Hopefully in a few more days I will have some answers about getting my record expunged. And on top of school hopefully I'll be able to get a job at Applebee's. Even though things with T are starting to get questionable I know that my own future is finally looking up and right now that's really all I need to worry about.
For today's post I decided to pick the song "Walk Away" by Olivia. When I listen to the lyrics it's like she's speaking about me and my situation right now with T. I feel like I need to walk away but I just can't, there's something holding me back. I wish that he would just see what I see when I look at him.
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