Slacking

Clearly I haven't been posting lately, I've been spending a lot of time with T, almost every day. It's been routine lately. I feel like I use him to escape from my house. Things between my dad and I have always been rough but lately its like we can't even talk without getting into an argument. I admit it has to do with my attitude towards him and I don't agree with some things he does. I hope with time and age I can develop better way to communicate with him.

Things between T and I are well I'm not sure I guess we are still just friends but we have become closer and we do couple things together. He still introduces me as a friend and I tell people he's just a friend but my emotions are telling me otherwise. I didn't want to make things with T serious and I'm still not sure if I will but its more of a possibility now.

J is still in my heart but not nearly as much. I recently found pictures of what I looked like after the whole thing with J and it's scary to see that girl in the picture. I cry when I see that girl in the picture, because I know what she was thinking then. I loved J there's no doubt about that but I'm not sure he loved me. How could someone in love do such a thing to the one they love?

I chose to put the song "The Art of Being Pulled Apart" by Jellyfish Brigade because my heart has been pulled apart many times and I've pieced it together just to have it pulled apart again. But every break, every scar, and every bad memory holds a lesson. I've become someone I can say I'm truly proud to be. I love even when its seems like the whole world is against me. 

I also wanted to share my other blog I started with some of my photography. If you're interested check it out here.