You know I've been trying to play it off as if I'm strong and trying to say I don't need a man and maybe I really don't, but I miss having a boyfriend. I miss having a lover, a best friend, and comfort in one person. I feel like I just don't have any one I can confide in when I'm in a bad mood. I don't have that one person that when I'm in a bad mood or i my funks I can call and feel better after. I remember that all I would need was a phone call or even just a text from J and my bad day would turn good, my overcasted skies turned clear blue. I miss having "another half" to me. It's even harder when 2 of 3 best friends have boyfriends. I've been trying to channel my focus on school, but it's been hard when I meet so many guys at school. It's just frustrating and tiring when it seems like all guys want these days is sex and no strings attached. And I feel like I want strings attached but no sex... no guy would want that.
A long distance relationship/online relationship sounds very appeeling to me lately so I've found a guy that seems like an nice guy. I understand that there are risks involved with online dating, but rigt now I'm willing to tke those risks. I'm not sure if I'm even planning on ever meeting this guy, he lives in Oregon and I live in California so I'm not sure if either of us think that the other is worth that trip yet.
On another note, I've been trying to lose weight and going to the gym as often as I can. I've lost about 20 pounds so far and I feel great about it and I have so much support. My best friend joined the gym and goes with me as often as she can. She pushes me to go hard and I love it, nothing motivates me more than a little bit of competion.
School is suprisingly going well. I'm ahead in my math class, doing well in spanish, and suprisingly keeping up in English.
I've found this year is the year of changes. I've been going through a bunch of changes and pretty much everyone else around me has been going through changes as well.
A long distance relationship/online relationship sounds very appeeling to me lately so I've found a guy that seems like an nice guy. I understand that there are risks involved with online dating, but rigt now I'm willing to tke those risks. I'm not sure if I'm even planning on ever meeting this guy, he lives in Oregon and I live in California so I'm not sure if either of us think that the other is worth that trip yet.
On another note, I've been trying to lose weight and going to the gym as often as I can. I've lost about 20 pounds so far and I feel great about it and I have so much support. My best friend joined the gym and goes with me as often as she can. She pushes me to go hard and I love it, nothing motivates me more than a little bit of competion.
School is suprisingly going well. I'm ahead in my math class, doing well in spanish, and suprisingly keeping up in English.
I've found this year is the year of changes. I've been going through a bunch of changes and pretty much everyone else around me has been going through changes as well.
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