I have been talking to my mutural friend with J and he told me that J has been asking about me, like how I'm doing and what I've been up to. It's comforting to know that J still cares about me. My feelings for him have pretty much come back in a full force. And it scares me, I'm vulnerable and I've been looking to find ways on whether or not I can legally contact him yet. I have to do a bunch of legal research cause I'm not gunna risk what he has now to talk to him. But with little research I have already done I think I can, because I believe it was just an emergency protection order that we had which means its lifted after 5 business days. But I'm not sure if there was a paper that I signed saying otherwise. This whole thing has got me confused at this point all I've wanted was a chance to talk to him but now I'm rethinking everything.
I have to keep moving forward with my life and if that means moving on with someone else so be it, but I'm not going to make that my main focus. My curiousity of what J is thinking and feeling has been killing me ever since our friend told me abou him asking about me. I still have so many unanswered questions. I've answered some of them but most of them I can't.
This is the first time in a really long time, if not ever, that being single sounds good to me. I've always tried to find happiness in a relationship, but I'm finding it in my everyday life.
On a completely random note, I miss my dad. He has been gone for a week or so, on a motorcycle ride. It's funny how when he's home all I wnt is for him to go out and do something but when he's gone its hard. He's the only one who is actually around the house. And he does a lot around the house, guess who gets to take up all his responsiblities when he's gone.... ME. But I'm glad my dad gets to enjoy a trip with his buddies.
I have to keep moving forward with my life and if that means moving on with someone else so be it, but I'm not going to make that my main focus. My curiousity of what J is thinking and feeling has been killing me ever since our friend told me abou him asking about me. I still have so many unanswered questions. I've answered some of them but most of them I can't.
This is the first time in a really long time, if not ever, that being single sounds good to me. I've always tried to find happiness in a relationship, but I'm finding it in my everyday life.
On a completely random note, I miss my dad. He has been gone for a week or so, on a motorcycle ride. It's funny how when he's home all I wnt is for him to go out and do something but when he's gone its hard. He's the only one who is actually around the house. And he does a lot around the house, guess who gets to take up all his responsiblities when he's gone.... ME. But I'm glad my dad gets to enjoy a trip with his buddies.
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