So I saw a more recent picture of J, and man does he look sober. He's gained weight, grown some weird facial hair and looks like he's finally finding peace in his life. It's nice to know that he has been actually working on his sobriety and to what it looks like has been clean. I wish I could visit him. Seeing him sober in the picture and seeing him look so much better makes my heart sink. My emotions are high today and it sucks cause it's my best friend's birthday but I really don't feel like doing anything but hiding in bed.
As much as I'm in pain I need to continue going on with my life. I need to keep focus on getting through my school work and doing what makes me happy. I have to know that J is getting better, it kind of gives me a bit of closure.
Even though I've been spending time with T, J has been creeping in my mind again. For a while he was only a memory but although T makes me feel great I feel the spark fading. I still feel the warmth from the spark J gave me. I feel like T and I are using each other in a way... both using the other to escape from missing someone else.
Anyways I'm not the biggest Justin Bieber fan, but I do like some of his songs. I picked "Nothing Like Us" on of his newer songs.
As much as I'm in pain I need to continue going on with my life. I need to keep focus on getting through my school work and doing what makes me happy. I have to know that J is getting better, it kind of gives me a bit of closure.
Even though I've been spending time with T, J has been creeping in my mind again. For a while he was only a memory but although T makes me feel great I feel the spark fading. I still feel the warmth from the spark J gave me. I feel like T and I are using each other in a way... both using the other to escape from missing someone else.
Anyways I'm not the biggest Justin Bieber fan, but I do like some of his songs. I picked "Nothing Like Us" on of his newer songs.
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