I've been on and off about moving on with a new guy even after everything that I've said and felt. I have been talking to a few guys and starting to form feelings for one, but I'm still not sure if I'm ready to say goodbye to J. I still have feelings for J, but lately it's been so hard not to listen to all the people saying move on. It's been so difficult trying to decide what to do and every time I think about it I say to myself "Just focus on you." But that has been difficult to do when throughout my life my relationship status has been the main focus. I wish I could be one of those girls who really doesn't need or want a man to come into their lives and sweep them off their feet. But the loving touch of a man's rough hands, the chills that run down my back from hearing a man's sexy deep voice, or the just skip of a heartbeat when he flashes that winning smile my way, are all so addicting.
There's a part of me that is ready to let go of J but there is still a bigger part of me holding onto him. It's been a crazy emotional ride and all I wanna know is when will it be over? I have until mid-April for his sentencing date and I'm getting nervous to hear what will happen. But I want it to come sooner so that I can start writing to him and getting some of my unanswered questions answered. As it gets closer to April I find myself thinking more and more about what I want to do and whether or not I want to talk to J again. It's hard when your heart and mind aren't agreeing.
There's a part of me that is ready to let go of J but there is still a bigger part of me holding onto him. It's been a crazy emotional ride and all I wanna know is when will it be over? I have until mid-April for his sentencing date and I'm getting nervous to hear what will happen. But I want it to come sooner so that I can start writing to him and getting some of my unanswered questions answered. As it gets closer to April I find myself thinking more and more about what I want to do and whether or not I want to talk to J again. It's hard when your heart and mind aren't agreeing.